THE KEY TO HEART

2006-08-10T13:43:00.000-07:00

please note: it'll be by last entry until after N which will be 6october. however, do tag me and i'll reply asap. =)
watched tv in the morning and i felt like a kid learning something. i was watching little kc! haha. it was too early that's why.

yesterday went to pray for my late grandpa. after so many months of mourning, soon it will be over. truthfully, i really hate to see somehow leave and never come back. sometimes i have to face the fact that he had gone but live without seeing him and his dote, my life sure will be missing something. anyway, heal has to be wounded.

tuesday was natonal day celebration. i find it was such a waste of time but for the sake of the outing later, i went. just for the sake okay! saw this two bungs, their hairs were so spiked up like a procupine! anyway, cant even be bothered to look at them so long. hahah. went to the hall for some performances. it was hell lame lah. the sec1s performances were hilarious with their funny actions. went to recess then homeroom. maylene, janet , rachel and me were talking. half way through. maylene seemed to irritated by janet. that was kind of maylene not saying it out infront of her. xiuwen body was hell nice too! my god! feel like exchanging body with her. haha. school ended. trained down to dhoby ghaut and wanted to catch a movie but it was hell long and crowded lah. then, we decided to spend money on eating. "ren ci shi fu", maylene taught me. ate mint chocolate ice- cream and walked around as there was NO seats for us. went heeren and janet came to meet us later. janet came and walked around. went cine the LJS and we kept laughing about the things we talked. later, we hold janet and act as if we were lesbians. janet was so poor thing to give in to us. continued until when we were at the cinema floor, janet did something embarrassing and maylene and i ran off without her. oh, and when we were at the elevator, janet shoe rolled off. it was hell funny lah. around 7, we went back home.

2006-08-10T01:35:00.000-07:00

Hold me in Your arms, never let me go
I wanna spend eternity with You
And now that You're near
Everything is different
I know I'm not the same
My life You've changed
I wanna be with You
You gave it all for me
My soul desire my everything
And all I am is devoted to You
Now it's my time
Now I've made up my
To be all You want for me
And I know where I'm going

2006-08-02T21:30:00.000-07:00

maylene, janet and rachel! i was the photographer! :D

rachel, janet and maylene had history paper in the morning and since i no need to go to school, i was asked to go out with them. alrights, i had fun and it really distress ALOT! :D

we bought snacks and drinks, as if we were going picnic. headed off to pasir ris park! all thanks to janet, we actually got lost. we managed to get there after 2hours. when we reached, we were so happy. unfortunately, it is too early to say. we almost got lost while looking for bicycle renting shop. ALL THANKS TO JANET!!

played in the water and splashing at each other were fun enough. we were screaming and shocked by the seaweeds everytime. sat down and we ate. we decided to go to a proper shelter siince it was going to rain. luckily, it was only a short while. headed off to bicycle renting shop and after walking all about, we found it.

rachel, janet and i rented bicycle and maylene rented rollerblade. rachel and my bikes forever crashed with each other. we had fun laughing over something happened. both of us cycled and gone into a part where it seemed to be eerie and we decided to turn back fast. saw maylene, she was still at the same place with janet. haha.

after returning the bikes and rollerblade, we headed off to the beach again. unforseen circumstance happened but i managed to join in finally. we picked seashells and stone and suntanning. rachel had the best sunburnt! headed back home. this time round, we got 2 buses back instead of 3.

we learnt a lesson, not to believe janet for directions! :D ice- skating next!

tml geog test. study through all the possible come out questions and it will be the last paper! yay! the miserable prelim will ended officially tml! :DDDDD

2006-07-27T18:47:00.000-07:00

tml, sec 4charity has no paper to do! yay! my week ended with miserable prelim papers.
monday- sciences and fNn
tuesday- math paper 2
thursday- geography
5 more papers to go! wish me luck! =)

im looking forward next week outing with janet, rachel and maylene! that will be the last before N. =(

2006-07-20T17:29:00.000-07:00

just now i was angry with my mum, but now it is alrights. hahah. she made my favourite fruit juice for me to drink again! yummy! =D
today chinese was unbearable but funny. ms lim actually confiscated maylene guitar because xiuwen played in class. while later, something happened and tricia said ms lim unreasonable. because of the word UNREASONABLE, mrs lim and tricia kept picking on each other. we tried to ask tricia to quiet first and xiuwen covered her mouth because we student are forever at the losing end! the funny part was when ms lim said,
ms lim: ni ben ting dao da jiang sen mo hor?
us: mei you ah. da jiang sen mo???
hahaha. tricia was shocked lah as we actually helped her, not the teacher! the whole class laughed! in the end, tricia still kana to go down with ms lim! rachel finally grabbed the guitar without ms lim knowing and hid. when outside, ms lim asked us where was the guitar and we pretended. when rachel wanted to give it back, xiuwen tried to block, not wanting her to give it back. when ms lim went down, we faster gave the guitar to jieying, who was just next door. close shave! Geog and ms chew wanted us to stay for remedial tml cos we lost the two periods on tues. i find ms chew going to be like second mrs palani, anyhow asked us stay back. =( Chemistry and i did quite badly for the previous test. everybody said it was hard and this type is coming out for the prelim! wth lah. ss after break. as usual, ms ng gave us source- based and structured to do. my source- based was totally incompleted as i did structured first. i wonder what ms ng will write in my paper. chinese again! this time round, nth happened. we had a proper lesson peacefully. biology is forever the one we can play around. as usual, we greeted ms lim fourth- five times for fun. hahah. i love my class! they are hilarious. =D

have to do fNn again. =(

2006-07-20T16:58:00.000-07:00

just quarrelled with my mum about fNn practical, the soup. i didnt really heard what she said the last part as i was breaking down and couldnt hear anything. that was the conversation.
me: mum, mrs palani said my soup looked oily.
mum: but we didnt add oil!
me: but she said the soup looked oily!
mum: we didnt add oil how can the soup be oily?!
me: so i have to make the soup dont looked like it is oily!
mum: but the teacher see and try can see it is not oily!
me: we took pictures to show the cambridge, not this teacher! so you want the school to transport the dishes to oversea lah!
mum: so what for cooking or take pictures?!
me: then you give you plane ticket, i go!
mum: you go ask your brother or sister and see whether they know what you talking about a not!
me: i think you are the one dunno what i talking about! nevermind lah, i fail then you make one!
mum: dont talk lah!
me: you keep calling me shut up but you also never shut up! shut up shut up! dont want talk to you already!
i meant like we need evidence to show the cambridge. i cant possibly transport the dishes and let them see or taste, only pictures! if they see it is oily, then oily! cant you understand?! if my soup didnt look oily, then how come mrs palani said my soup looked oily in the first place?! i only asking you for suggestions but you quarrelled with me with such unreasonable stuffs! you can be such an unreasonable by telling me to buy everything through teacher and dont ask her anything. what if i do not have the ingredients i want, how?! you didnt even thought of that! you said what you want! wth!
seriously, fNn really gave me a lot of troubles, problems and use up much of my time! i can say i spent most of the time in FnN than other subs. if i can drop, i want to as i can concentrate others. i hate fNn!

2006-07-18T18:16:00.000-07:00

my chinese oral falls on my brother birthday! awww... i should go home early after school but it seems i cant. moreover, maylene and rachel orals do not fall on the same day as me! they are thursday and me and janet, wednesday?! aww....

this week, as many teachers had said, it will be the last week for us to have lessons. next week onwards, we will not have a proper lessons. =( the prelims, nrp, N'level can really stress us out, from the pressure each teacher gave.

i have been coming straight from school, yet my mum didnt praise me at all! wth. im so obedient this year and i didnt even heard her saying to me "Good Girl!" =( i have to pass my N even though if i dont wish to continue after that, my mum said that too! somewhat, i feel like studying somemore but i hope there is other ways out, except O'level.

alrights, have to continue my homeworks! =(

2006-07-06T18:13:00.000-07:00

previous post is about N's. now is some personal stuffs.

im hate one girl. she thinks she can but doesnt mean we can. you are obviously thinking of yourself whether you can anot, not other people. moreover, a incident that you are not involve, you become a part of it. you think you everything's right, but it seems sometimes you are wrong. you think you also very big but we think you are not. you make people detest you instead. wth.

im somehow fed up today over one thing. they were somehow abit too much and insulting. i know it was not me but i feel very irritated about they way you all talked and did. i feel pity for her but she just play along with them. if it was me, i'll fight back. i couldn't stand. anyway, hope that everything goes well after few days. they are nice people anyway. =D

N's english oral in 10 july
N's chinese oral in 26 july
prelim start on 24 july
N's start around september and october.
IT IS JUST AROUND THE CORNER!!! =(

2006-07-06T17:56:00.000-07:00

i shall update some things that happened recently. this is my thoughts lah.
N level is really getting on my nerves! i never felt so urban stress or tired before. i drag my feets to school and i really dread going. school is somehow like a nightmare now but somehow, rachel, maylene and janet seem to make me feel happier. N level oral for me is in 4 days time. im so envy of 4B that they able to finish so fast, yet we have to be so long. wish my classmates that involve today, monday and tuesday to do well.

english- mrs soon is testing us oral nowadays. while she testing, she gave us a stack of worksheet to do everytime but we havent even complete the previous one! we still have to reach her expectations she have for us. =(
math- math is somehow interesting. of cos test for every tues and gone through most corrections. i still have whole stacks of school papers havent complete! =(
chinese- ms lim maybe too lenient to us. she has to go through the papers we did and textbook. everytime there will be different types of homeworks from her. =(
chemistry- ms sunarti gives us test every tues. she also gone through the tests corrections another day and homeworks. im poor in chemistry so i often lost my way while doing. =(
biology- ms lim brought us brownie today. =D beside that, we still have to continue a stack of different years of N's papers. =(
social studies- it is the worst of all. ms ng mostly every lessons trained us to do some questions within the time she gave. that is the time i feel very pressurize. =(
geography- ms chew gave us papers to do as well and by next week or something, we cannot use our textbook to flick anymore. =(
fNn- all about coursework and have to get an distinction so she push us alot lah. we have to redo what we did most of the times. because of that, i always got so fed up. whole stack of papers we have to do as well. she really think we are very free! =(

this whole thing makes my life in school depressing and unhappy. imagine N's im already like that, O's i can go jump down from the building already.

2006-06-29T21:12:00.000-07:00

today had prelim english oral and gosh, due to some O's level chinese oral girls from 4B, C and D, we took at around late afternoon. my examiner was mrs april ng. the oral was fucking talkable lah. another word is easy. i was disgusted by mrs ho facial expression, oh please, luckily she was not my examiner otherwise she may deduct my marks or we will not have any unpleasant sight.
many things have seems to be gone in a shorter time soon. example pe and lessons. from prelims, we will not have a proper lessons. i hate prelims and N's. it is driving me nuts! till now, we are still doing different school papers. just got our N's timetable and i hope 6th Nov will faster gone so i no need to attend school and off to find a job and hopefully, get a flying colours for my N's. =)

i have to do fNn now. we now have 8 periods of fNn instead of 6. no cme you know. we are busy people now. =(

you make my life beautiful. i did not regret the times i used to like you so much. however, there is a time to bid goodbye. takecare.

2006-06-27T18:36:00.000-07:00

just read maylene updates and it is rather sad as her bro had gone to camp and only weekends can come back. if it is my bro, i bet my suitation will be like her. we are like so close but have to separate for 2 years. it is really very unbearable. the conclusion is, "we love our brothers".

second days of school. it was fun though. maylene, rachel, janet and me were laughing every few minutes. janet was so cute lah. i hate school somehow as well. every teachers gave us different schools exam papers to do. one day do paper or revision, another day gave us give us test to do. i just fucking hate it. 29 june is english oral and somehow im unprepare lah. prelim on 24 july and it is less than one month to study now. moreover, Nlevel oral for me is 26 july! it is just 2 days after the start of the prelim. im really getting busy now. wait till 4 months later for play time, i find it rather hard to come.

alrights, i have to print some fNn coursework stuffs for tmr. im not satisfy! =D

2006-06-21T12:41:00.000-07:00

just had english this morning. it was unbearable. only 9 people present and i feel pressurized as mrs soon gave us too much attention. anyway, it ended finally. =D went home as i was sick. prelim oral will on this coming thursday and prelim will be on 24 july! -faints

210606
went out with maylene. i was late for 18 minutes and when i reached there, i thought i early than her but then, she appeared out of nowhere. anyway, she 3 minutes early than me ONLY. hahah. went to take mrt. suddenly, she reminded me of pinching. so i pinched her and we ran tgt when she wanted to pinch me. hahah. people were looking, maylene. hahah. on the way to dhoby ghaut, we said certain countries name to fit inside all destinations. (hougang= hawaii) we also said that when we reached clarke quay, we stood outside the clubs and watch people dancing and drinking while we drooling. haha. cute lah maylene. anyhow think of this. when we on the escalator, i told maylene alot of people behind then when she turned back, she told me" ya, alot of people." when off the escalator, we laughed all the things previously said and we seems to be drifting apart and i stomped my feet! hahah. it was unbearable. seconds later, we were the only one there laughing and people all disappearing. hahah. planned to go cathy around ps. we seems to be lost in the first place, luckily, we got a saviour called michelle, who helped us got to cathy. reached. it was under renovation, so it was very clean and quiet. the toilet was nice too! we laughed everywhere we went lah. next, suntec city. went to koi garden to fed fishes. it was so adorable lah. planned to go buffet porridge for lunch but ended in macs. hahah. went esplanada and we walking around river there. somehow the scenary was nice. wind blew till our hair were messy! our legs were tired and we felt rather hot. went clarke quay next. searching for colourful bridge and searching for club momo as well. hahah. all were such a vain. all i wanted was a chair, a chair to sit. hahah. went back home at around 6pm.
i was happy and have to wait for 4 more months for the next outing! mugging start now lah.

it is true that i know what im doing, where im going.

2006-06-17T16:48:00.000-07:00

she's my sugarrush and that is akina! hello sugarrush! =D <333

today didnt go grandma house as i feel urban tired! just slept for 2 hours after tuition and im satisfy. hahah. now i shall concentrate the rest of my homeworks since i finished what i had to do for fNn coursework.

yesterday went out with maylene. it was great. 12.35pm met maylene. sometimes when we were talking happily, people kept interupting us. hahah. many things happened. went to watch garfield in cathy. it was hilarious and so cute. we love it. walk around town. heeren, takashimaya, wisma, pacific plaza and somehow far east. our legs were pain but we can tolerate however i was the first one to put plaster. about 5.45pm, we went plaza sing. we were looking for toys in carrefour to play with but it changed quite alot somehow. we had ice cream too. saw barney show and the barney was so cute lah. hahah. went to look for toilet all over the place and maylene was so cute toward each toilet. hahah. went home. about 7.45pm, i reached! =DDD another day hangout again. hahah. =))

2006-06-15T01:29:00.000-07:00

hahah. i love my clique. thanks for being with me for this two, three years. =DD
i finally finished my fNn research and surveys by yesterday night which i spent the whole day. i was relieved at least i finished what i had to and now it is time for me to do homeworks and play!
today went for fNn. surprisingly, mrs palani had actually seems to forget about having lesson with us. we waited centuries for her and michelle was there to kept us laughing. hilarious woman! by 10am, we decided to leave. it is enough for us to wait for her 1 hour.
rachel and maylene went to my house after then. since my parents not at home, i brought my dog down to play with them and what they did?! they screamed and jumped!!!! hahah. they are all so cute. went in my house and watched "my sassy girl". due to some circumstances, maylene had to go early than rachel. after finishing the movie, i took rach to my room and tried out some clothes. hahaha. they fits rach nicely.
i cant wait for tml alrights. it seems like it is once in a lifetime i went out happily with maylene. hahah.

you looking into my heart when there is nothing happened before.

2006-06-13T15:04:00.000-07:00

im getting bored. havent finish my research yet and now im rushing it through. the day after tml is fNn and thanks guys, i got three surveys done! =DDDD
im so excited for friday outing with maylene. frankly speaking, been busy with fNn, i have no time to go out at all. oh no, my homeworks left loads undone too. gosh!
prelim is getting nearer and the urgency is increasing everyday. i dont want go school. see works, see some disgusting people, im dread. beats me!
im tired of frenster. cant be bothered to view others even they change, die, update whatever. just update or accept anything i have then i log out. what for i have a frenster. nothing much i do about it.

after so many months of carefree,
im in love with him
the interactions, sight and times we had,
i like it very much. =)
thanks for brightening up my day.

2006-06-05T16:14:00.000-07:00

im very fucked up nowadays. now im really have a real taste of STRESS. i hate N level. yesterday spent 9 hours doing all the task analysis and now, have to undo some of them as palani said so. thinking tomorrow i have to go back for fNn again, i very fucked up. she want perfection in order to let us deserve that distinction but she seems to give more and more edits until we have to undo and undo again. alrights, have to continue my mindmap now. this is just a brief update.
catch movie tomorrow. however, im deadly broke. =(

baby, just come home and celebrate it with me.

2006-05-25T19:07:00.000-07:00

today was said as last day of school. school released us one hour earlier.
had mass in the morning. just find that today mass was extraordinary funny! not because the priest, but just rachel and me silly stuffs. then, rachel and me were curious about those stuff that catholics ate, so we decided to eat it too. asked leeza and lyns how it should be done. quite plain but actually acceptable. we were laughing again. i was happy. =D
gospel singing competition next. 3H was nice! simply love it out of all others. somehow, i felt disgusted about something but glad that 3H had won the champion.
returned to class to arrange position of table and chairs for ptm tmr. oh shit.
had investiture after recess. while others were receiving their certificates, nadiah, maylene, rachel and me were happily laughing at our own stuffs again. i was happy once again! =D
presentation by diana and her friend about the workshops. wth. their workshops were like so enjoyable and nice! why we dont have?? irritating banana.
had discipline talk once again. however, it is shorter and managed to finish just 10 mins. good!
supposed to have meeting after school. but maylene and rachel did not want me to go and pulled me away. hahah. they succeeded lah.
went compass awhile. since im mourning now, i try not to go out too often or too long. i shall be a good grandaughter. dont tempt me anything or i chop you into pieces! =)
sat is family day. frankly speaking, it is just a waste of my time. just because im not taking chinese 0's, i have to go. 5 hours using 5 coupons only. ridiculous lah. waste my cash.

always in the place of me. i dont deny i miss him badly.
i still love my grandfather! =(

2006-05-22T17:29:00.000-07:00

im getting better now. im mourning now somemore. anyway, just like what maylene had said, i have to be cheerful and strong again. i cant simply let this tragedy affects my exams now. if i want to think about it, maybe it'll be a short while. at least it is much better.

today was somehow irritating. early in the morning, huiyan was scolded by saying "sucks" through the PA system. hellos! it is not that serious but the mrs chan made it sound so serious and wanted huiyan to have public apology. wth. it is like so common to us. we laughed, aint wronged! spot check next. luckily i didnt got caught. but my others friends got caught for trivial things. wth!
mrs soon was talking about house- keeping matters with us during both english periods. although most of it sounded so serious but we laughed at some parts. how hilarious.
we non- O'chinese have to come back for family day to participate! what a waste of my time lah. i would rather spend my time at home. pig!

im busy sending songs now. shall update someday then. =)

2006-05-20T23:35:00.000-07:00

yesterday just finished with funeral stuffs. had overnight with my cousins the day before yesterday, it was so uncomfortable at all. anyway, i slept 3 hrs. alrights, the day i had with my cousins was fun enough. friday i was not in school, i felt nothing at all.
yesterday, most of us broke down while we saw our grandpa was cremated. it was pretty unbearable. the days i remember will never be erase. "23april'06 - 21may'06"

tmr will be attending school. as what i had told mrs soon, i'll be giving her a death cert on monday.

cousework will be handed up as well. i havent even do the surveys yet! wth.

2006-05-17T15:42:00.000-07:00

my grandpa had pass away yesterday. so, im very unhappy and sad. im not in the mood for everything. something unexpected had actually happened and i just refuse to face the reality. all my 16 years, his corncern, doting, caring will never come from him again. i abhor it. alot alot much much much alot! it has really long i break down. went to the wake, dare not cry it out as it will attract attention. everyone is sad. grandpa, rest in peace. =(

yesterday was fun with maylene. walked back and fore like numbers of times, but we enjoyed it. lets try again someday. hahah

all papers got back today. im disappointed as i didnt did quite well. im so scared for prelim and N now. it is like left 3 months for this and that. teachers are driving us SIAO and that was what all teachers said, "good! you should have the stress and SIAO attitude now". homeworks must be huge piles again. people has ppp but we have lessons and things to do. how saddening.
my kneecap is giving me pain. limping i may not have but difficulty in sitting and standing for too long. the tired but not tired feeling is getting me fucked up.

i have to go to bathe now. update someday again.

2006-05-09T15:59:00.000-07:00

IM JOCELYN THE FABULOUS

my exams had over finally. rachel they all just finished yesterday and mine, today?! alrights. papers held in the hall and i was so freaking cold half way through. i have no confident for my midyear this year. prepare to see whole lots of red colors in my report book.
after school, was fun though. went out with rachel and daryl. =)

thursday has school still. oh my, im so dread going again. since there is only 1 out of 3 days that need to go to school, why not let us stay at home instead?! irritating banana.
moreover, has class and cca photo takings!

since i never seriously played maple during exams period, i shall go play now.

2006-05-03T18:30:00.000-07:00

tiffany, the fortune teller! your popcorn is ready for delivery tomorrow! hahah - the popcorn maker!

if i can kill valerie tan one day, i'll, alrights! it was so embarrassing and how am i supposed to face him? oh my god! that was all your doing, girlfriend!
fourth paper, biology today. i can handled mcq and section A well but not my section B. anyway, i have confident to pass.
because of the polling stuffs on saturday, school has to close on friday at 2pm. this means fNn will be postpone. i dont like it, i hate it. however, i can be happy as i havent touch fNn yet!
ss was okay. math hopeless. since math paper one was hopeless, i do not have high hopes on my paper two tmr. have to disappoint mrs ong once again. sorry.
english i bet i flunked eventually. i dont even understood what the hell was the passage A about! i just applied whatever it was in there and done. passage B was much much much better okay! i bet most of us agreed to this. just like what maylene and michelle had said, " we study just for the sake of studying." quite true lah. no harm saying that.
i was really happy today with all those funny silly stuffs we were laughing loudly in every single moment.
dont see from the outer side. see inner side can be good. this is what it makes understanding so well. im on my nerves, stressing on everything, so do not think by seeing me laughing or joking means im not on the stressing period. sometimes, we do need entertainments to release.

know what?! i hate you! goodbye. you are just pathetic in your own way.

2006-04-26T19:11:00.000-07:00

2 more days to the mye. moreover, more exams and tests will be coming till the end of N. im so stress, really tired as well. thanks goodness, remedials had finished for this semester, but will be real busy on the next semester. at least, i can go home early nowadays and please, im like so happy as we had been staying back everyday till very late for last 3 months.
i hate school. i dread going and cant even bother to think much what will happen every single day. teachers are drilling us with papers, tests, homeworks and other schools exam. i can imagine a day with 24hours, filled with all these stuffs. the N is stressing us like hell alrights?! im so unhappy.
many things had happened recently and i felt that life's just like a bitch. i realise i had been bitching since when as they really irritated me. i wont bitch and i dont want to bitch as well. it is so ridiculous anyway.

have to do my homeworks now. it is getting on my nerves as im getting so fed up, so fucked up!

2006-04-22T17:40:00.000-07:00

i have alot of notes to reminisces for ss. wth. it is like whole sec3 and 2 chapters of sec4 books. addition, ms ng was absented for days, 3 periods of lessons that day was wasted.
chinese oral today. it was alrights. thanks goodness mdm zhang was our examiner. she was nice lah. i had to be in school by 7.45am, but i was like, the last two??? mr sim was funny and it caused by the class he examined. it was like he was waiting for the students to read finished but they took so long. mr sim actions was funny and we were the only class laughing while others were waiting quietly. when it was jolie turn to be examined, she still sat down there. we called her obviously. what was hilarious was mdm zhang pretended she was coughing. hahah. mr sim was laughing as well. i think he will learn from mdm zhang next time. the whole thing was hilarious lah.
yesterday pft. i have no confident of getting silver this year. this year, i really disappointed with my results. next year, i have to make myself more flexible and strong! =)

2 more days, it will be english paper. hope that everything goes well. moreover, it will also be a cca trip with the juniors and all.

2006-04-20T18:18:00.000-07:00

there is a island called starbucks island! okay, if im slow, then im cos i dont usually do research only when i feel like to.
5 batteries tmr and im so excited. i hate the human who pulled the expectations higher than before. my standing board jump kills me. anyway, i pass my 2.4km run! i thought i did badly, but it turns out pretty good yeah. hahah. this is self- praise. =)
english oral supposed to be same as chinese oral, however it has been postpone to 29th june. i just want to finish all at one go.
i did a sin today. still thinking what will be the outcome if the day that i scared come. put yourself in my shoes, what will you do? tell me.
today lessons reviewed.
ss, ms ng was absent. the three periods were free, except the math that mrs ong asked us to do before handing it to her before recess. recess was interesting and panicking. we packed food to homeroom and on the way there, we saw mrs ng peckhoon. she stared at us and when she walked away, we ran to other staircase. we were avoiding her without she looked at us.
chemistry was boring. i got stucked at most of the questions.

now, i have to do my rest of the homeworks.

sorry and please forgive me.

2006-04-17T17:33:00.000-07:00

alrights. supposed to go for math session but since we so dread going, we didnt. was not feeling well after recess and that is when my mood changes. anyway, im feeling better now.
im alone at home now and somehow, im worried for my parents and siblings safety as it is raining heavily now.
math was okay. i learned something today! mrs ong was trying to pick some girls to answer some math question. im one of them.
mrs ong: jocelyn, trying to turn your eyes everywhere when i looked at you. -smile
me: -shakes head (laughings)
however, i love mrs ong lah.
english was boring with all those comprehension to do.
bio had a surprise test but not counted i supposed. ms lim went to the toilet, and after a while,
leeza: hey people! how to do 18b?
we all looked up and everyone was giving different kinds of answer. from then, the test dont look like a test as we were discussing or talking, after ms lim came back, all act serious. haha. after test, we had free time. everyone walking all about.
rachel: mrs lim, i go toilet.
me: i also -thinking impossible
mrs lim: one at a time.
rachel kept asking me to go with her. without mrs attention, i sneaked out. haha. back class, mrs lim looked at us with her big eyes!
mrs lim: i said one at a time right?
me: oh.. i go take something. haha
rachel: nvm one lah.
mrs lim: later someone catches you
rachel: we never get caught
went back. while later, i was walking infront
someone: jocelyn, where is mrs lim whole punture?
me: -looking around too
someone: mrs lim! where is the whole punture?
mrs lim: there. there. -big eyes staring at her and suddenly me.
mrs lim rmb me for a big blur sotong that time and now, again. haha. she is like my mother when she beat me lightly with her big eyes! haha
had recess, chinese then. ms lim gave us a packet of chocolate as she owe us many many.
had fNn. fNn is getting interesting but loads of homeworks mrs palani gave us. we always had hell loads of laughters around.
english again. again, it was boring, as we continued the comprehension. however, we did laughs at some funny silly stuffs. im happy but actually, im unhappy too lah.
i've to do my fNn homeworks. it is like so many revisions.

im feeling rather insecurity with you all now. however, i still feel comfortable and can talk everything out with you all. i can still tolerate somemore.
family is my first piority, studies is the second, and friends is the third.
that will be the time-being.

2006-04-15T00:20:00.000-07:00

now is 12.01am. i have no one to talk to now.
today was 2.4km run. many of us were so scared and excited. i was pretty disappointed with myself as i didnt do well. my position and timing drop down. i was really very tired. after that, went to hang about with girlfriend. we were happy lah. about 1pm, reached home. as i was tired, i went to sleep. all those daily routine continue again. i scared that i failed my 2.4km run as i didnt heard my timing properly. i scared! yesterday went out with janet and maylene. as it was good friday, they went to church. we were towning and due to the rain, we werent managed to walk much. due to unforseen circumstances, i went home earlier than them. frankly speaking, i was damn fucked up lah.

teachers gave us piles of homeworks again, as if it was 1 week holidays again. thanks goodness, there is no math homework, otherwise i will be so damn stuck. i have to rush my homeworks once again. i have to go now as it is getting rather peaceful around my here.

i getting everything all screwed up. im getting prefectly fine and you are just so prefectly pathetic. know that?

2006-04-10T19:28:00.000-07:00

i've changed my email add.
joce-lyn_@hotmail.com
i find my previous email add was somehow a bit childish.
imaging when you are interviewing and they didnt expected your email add to be like bubbleluv05, right? alrights, i have alot of catchups to do now.

orals, PFT, mid-year exams are coming soon. left weeks to prepare and study for all.
oh please, i have somehow trying to find my concentration back as some stuffs really annoyed me.
alrights, i have to go. today and daily math homework still left much undone. =(

the most valuable thing is not what you have in your life,
but who you have in your life.
maybe that is my belief.

2006-04-06T19:36:00.000-07:00

saint elizabeth won today swim meet once again! we are this year champion yea.
swim was held at toa payoh complex. oh please, it was such a long trip, however, valerie hu had her gruesome stories to disgust me. although st emilie and st elizabeth sat together, the teachers want to leave a big gap between us. so, i was irritated, not because i was not able to sit with vals and nadiah, but mr chang was shouting loudly. okay, no point for me to get angry now. as there was some unforseen circumstances, i decided to sit with my class which is near st catherine. i managed to sit together with my felicia. the swim meet ended with cheers, and before ms chow announced dismissed, rachel, felicia and me had already gone.

went harbourfront again. girlfriend went to buy a wallet that she was eyeing all the while. hanged around and off we went to compass. we saw gays! haha. they were like holding hands and walking all about. we decided to follow them and whenever they went, everybody watching them. disgusting fellows.
tmr is friday, yet i keep thinking is saturday. want to do cartwheel again tmr!

2006-04-02T20:00:00.000-07:00

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haha. steady supporter?? utter rubbish. =) anyway, suppose not to go online this few weeks as i have to study for mid year already. however, i just have to update some interesting parts and i will go offline.
yesterday went tuition. i was so bored and tired there. however, i cant wait to meet vals later on. went to town with them. saw quite alot of sjcians everywhere. i very honoured to say that girlfriend and me had some kind of telepathy. we actually wore white sleeveless top while val wore black. went ps. as the ice age 2 was full, we went cineleisure. thankfully, we managed to catch a 4.30pm show. due to some shocks and embarrassments, we headed to harbourfront after watching ice age 2. hanged around harbour and around 7 plus, we went home. as we didnt expected the trip could be so long, we reached home around 8 plus. i had fun with them today.
today went tuition again. i stayed for one hour as i had to go out with family later. however, i promised my tutor i will be staying for three hours next week. went to my cousin house at farrer park. that was my twin niece one year old birthday! the food was nice and i obviously had fun with my cousins. running here and there, busy chasing two playful cousins, laughters and oh ya, the cake was delicious. =) i love them, i really love them alotssssssssss.
now, it is the time to study, instead having all these fun. wait for months later then. school resume again tomorrow. im so dread going.

you held my hand and walked me home, how will it be tomorrow?

2006-03-29T20:36:00.000-08:00

school was pretty tired. i abhor my bad temper as well as i'll get very irritated easily nowadays. maybe due to stress, tiredness and some sickening people pissing me off.
i just hate exams. teachers are driving us nuts every now and then. however, i want to pass my mid-year well with rainbow colors!
swim meet next thursday. oh my goodness, it will be held at toa payoh swimming complex instead of yio chu kang swimming complex now. i dont even know how to go there and moreover, it is a long trip! it totally take my precious sleepy morning away.
im so in love with all those strict teachers than those gentle one. i just love to talk to them and they are so nice and sociable. whatever, i prefer them.
today was filled with laughters with girlfriend, rachel and maylene. all those cute, precious childhood memories really amused us. laughing at some silly and funny stuffs as well. oh my god, i love them all.
i hate my everyday sessions math teacher. can i say sucks? alrights, she is then. we dont like her in the first place and spoiling everyone studying mood. oh wells, i dread going there now. alrights, now i have to go.

all was just a mistake in the first place. i dont like you, yet hate you even more.

2006-03-24T21:33:00.000-08:00

im happy today as nothing unfortunate had happened. my class went fine. :)
we learned something different in chemistry. because of some unforseen circumstances, ms sunarti had to leave us, so free period for us. ms low was not there. so, we had free period as well. maylene and me did something silly and we enjoyed laughing at it. rachel locked us up and we were like some museum exhibition. that really brightened up the start of my day. went math. alrights, a whole bunch of schools papers for us to do during personal time. we updated our files the whole period and as a result, we didnt learned anything. decided to bring my math file home to update as well. geog next. our class went hyper whenever in ms chew lessons. due to our protest againest mapworks, we did tourism. "now i scared of you all" that was what she said. actually, from another view, ms chew look pretty. :D had chinese. ms lim room is always making me sleepy. we had to do zhao ju and i chose xuan jun fu mo between girlfriend and me. easy right? girlfriend and me spent minutes thinking and wrote on the board. you look into the ci yu shou che ar?" ms lim said. this shows that when girlfriend and me the brain combine together, we are smart babes. :) cd period. mrs soon and ms lim busy doing student portfolio, we were still as active ever. again, vals and me had a good laughs together. went long john silver. back school. 3 of us had stomach upsets and spoilt our mood. however, those adorable juniors brightened up our day. today wushu was fun. we learned how to fly, sommersault, and all. hope every lessons will be this interesting. 6.30pm went home.
tomorrow is award ceremony. we like spent everyday staying back in school, so i hope all gotten be alrights tomorrow. maybe going out after school then. :)
im smelly. gotten bathe now. goodbye.

;oh my baby, he is mine! :)
;dont say bad things about other people, it will happen to you in future, woman! anyway, you are also not that perfect, dont anyhow judge others!
;"i dont like you" is what i wanna say to her. she is just so plain irritating. talk to herself most of the time, didnt bring books everyday and somemore, she dont feel embarrassing. take other people books as her own one, eat, eat , eat, only know how to eat and sleep, what a waste of life-spending. alrights, you are the one who i detest but have to face you everytime, you spoiler!

2006-03-21T20:05:00.000-08:00

school is rather boring now!
im not getting any concentration nowadays. im tired, really tired. i can break down any sooner la.

have to do my homeworks now and study for bio test.

2006-03-17T21:00:00.000-08:00

just went cca this afternoon. today session was fun at least. alrights, i have alot to do for cca nowadays. because diane is leaving us this year, we have to prepare a farewell day. we decided to have a party after everything is over. that will possibly on friday before cca. since we have $14 from the whole group, we have to be more thrify. and hello?! i still have to do budget proposal to ms tay. more and more ideas and suggestions have to think and discuss within us. afterall, i will make it a memorable one for diane.
im so glad that i dont have to go for cca anymore after the competition since we have to study for Nlevel and our attendances had already reached as expected. one more month to end this all! however, i still miss my those adorable juniors. they are hilarious! i love them all.
march holidays going to end. to me, i find the time passes very slowly but i havent enjoy to the fullest yet. some homeworks still left undone but i wont keep them uncompleted. every negative attitude has to be positive now. i dying to have suntanning now as well, however, i bet i have to wait till june hols cos now i realise i have alot to catchups, especially fNn coursework.
award ceremony rehearsals resume again next week. i have to help them apply makeups before their performance. im somehow puzzled what am i suppose to do. whatever, i just did what i was been told.
"friends come and go". wasnt this familiar, maylene? alrights, im not hinting or anything. i just realise this logic recently. friends change suddenly and really, i really detest that. you did hurt me behind my smiles and i could no more try to be closer or understand you more. im tired of this and that. however, i still treasure them but somehow, i guess im not what im last time. this is really getting tiring and a waste of my time. i would and should rather spend those time studying instead. im not saying you, maylene. it was just some people ruining my day, my mood yet, i have to face them everyday.
enough of that, i have to do my hols homeworks now. it is getting late anyway.

time will take us through every steps, everyday. i believe you are still close to me, yet so far.

2006-03-10T20:23:00.000-08:00

once again, st eli's won today sport meet. three cheers please! :D
however, our cheer competition degraded. we got 3rd instead.

st cat's won 2nd once again. three cheers for them as well. :)

our class lost even though we came in second. nevermind, everything is gotten be alrights.

off to do my hols homeworks now.

it is easy to remember but hard to forget. it is easy to see but hard to search. this is all about you.

Looking at your picture from when we first met.
You gave me a smile that I could never forget.
You and I were everything, everything to me

I try to go on like I never knew you.
I’m awake but my world is half asleep
There's not a day that passes by
I don't wonder why we haven't tried
It's not too late to change your mind
And take my hand, don't say goodbye

2006-03-09T20:06:00.000-08:00

it has been days and im still sick but at least im not as pale as last few days.

march hols coming in few days time. piles of homeworks were given by teachers. it is much much more than last year alrights. with all these homeworks, i bet i cant go out at all. fully occupied then. more sleeps for me this hols i try. =)

award ceremony was boring. dread going for all remedials. tired and stress every now and then. some people are ruining my day more still. i hate the sight of them but still, have to face them. i had enough. almost cant concentrate in lessons as well. oh please, especially those after recess, i can doze off. even i can lie my head on the table, im glad. late night sleeps really makes me lose concentration but i cant be able to sleep early at all. i will go bersek please!

tml is sport meet. suddenly feel dreading to run for class. everything just so seem boring for me now.

;felicia - sister, without you in ac with me, i feel so bored and lonely there. :(

;jolie - hello again tadpole! :)

i dont need a lifetime, yet just a moment will do.

2006-03-04T20:44:00.000-08:00

had a bad day since yesterday. im sick again.

chemistry and geography cts were alrights yesterday.

im so tired of school nowadays. most teachers had finished the N'level topics. so we had like 6months of revision. there is no reason for me to fail now, right? right!

why must you did that?? i just wanna know from you yet you said, "i dont know." that is so ridiculous. you did this, sure have the reason, what with the saying i dont know?! i really detest you now. you are a sadistic person and have the bad influences. you are getting from bad to worse la. go away and dont come together with my clique. we dont welcome you now.

2006-02-26T19:08:00.000-08:00

just had study session with maylene in yoshinoya. that was not bad though. study session with her again next week! gotten study for my cts and class tests soon.

25feb'06

had chemistry. frankly speaking, chemistry turn rather boring nowsdays. maybe i was too tired to concentrate. however, the formuales and all were quite interesting. had pe. ms judy low was trying to kill us slowly please. had math. finally had the courage to have a appointment with mrs ong on math questions. later, mrs ong was irritated. i hope everything will be back to normal on monday. had geog. because of one girl, ms chew was not present for awhile. as usual, she gave us work to do. the class did our own work quietly and seriously. not even one noise broke. when ms chew came back, she was so impressed and due to that, we able to go off punctually for recess even thought we didnt finished our work. oh wells, that was a advantage. had recess but stayed in ct room to study ss instead. had chinese. ms lim gave us a compo test. rachel and me just quickly write and quickly study ss. no time to waste already. had cd then. we had tables and chairs just because we had to do cd test. unfortunately, many of us failed. xiuwen and tricia can really entertained me alot. haha. there is a compliment. had ss test. not much confident on welfare state thingys. had cca one hour later. as usual, ms tay scolded us again. whatever la. sprain my waist while twisting. painful! then, went to meet mrs ong on math questions. i understand clearly now. thanks mrs ong! =) went to meet vals and off we went to wait for our parents. so, one by one, went in with their parents, left me alone there. 7+, my mum finally came. alrights, all sorts of things once again been said. off we went home wihtout seeing any teachers.
that was the day alot of things happening. bless my ss to be okay please.

i feel like laughing when i see you now.

2006-02-17T20:56:00.000-08:00

today i was irritated and troubled by some things. damn fucked up la. i shall not say anything here as it will be officially charged for utter rudeness.

can you be more active or attentive?! i dont wanna the last unpleasant thing to repeat again and i guess, you dont want too as well, right? i dont wanna write unpleasant things about you now unless i really cant tolerate.

what we created tomorrow is what we created today.
let me think of you one last time tonight before i really let go of you this time.
i wanna create my tomorrow without you in my mind. =)

2006-02-17T20:31:00.000-08:00

ms sek came back for visit today! now when i saw her, i realise how much she is missed and loved by me. i cried. oh my, i actually cried?! ms sek is so nice to encourage me, sayang me and i love the hugs she gave me. i cried even more. =) even when she tranfer to henderson sec, she still treat us like her precious darling girls, her present experiences, encouragements makes me wanna work even harder. i hope she can come back more often and since ms sek is sick, i shall pray for her to recover faster. she love us, i love her even more! =)

common tests coming starting next week. im so dread hanging out now, instead, study is much more important. most of the tests start after school alrights. this may be better cause we can revise with subs teacher earlier, right? anyway, it is only one hour. i have to do homeworks now. =(

xiuwen - i am not short ok. you are just being tall! =D
felicia - thanks for the valentine present today. it is so cute! =)

2006-02-14T21:00:00.000-08:00

happy valentine people!

thanks for those who gave me presents. im loving it. =)

today school is full of valentine mood. presents gave and received everywhere. mrs debra tan reflection in the morning was nice. had pe. mrs low was so hard-hearted as she made us ran so many sets. all of us were so tired. rachel said" she never show us any love.. .." she was cute. have to continue again next pe lesson. arghh..
had math in the later period. mrs ong was not in school. most of us were walking here and there and mr chang was eyeing at us all the while. lol. anyway, other than talked, still talked. had fNn after recess. we planned to give mrs palani a surprise. all of us wrote something and finally mrs palani came. she was so touched for the first time and she said she will repay her love for us. i wonder if it is negative or positive. had practical then. for the first time, we didnt scolded by her and most of the steps, she used our ingredients as demo and she did all for us. =) rush hours again.
had assembly. the animations was cute. fashion parade then. some was too unique. lol. gothic it may be as well. went back to fNn room to finish off the rest.
went cp to buy others bigger present. spent quite late there, like 5.45pm yeas. thanks guys for been my valentine today. i love them =)
tmr dont feel like participate in the food rationing activity. i shall go on diet tmr. =)

everything is not purposely but coincidences. no use avoiding at all.

2006-02-10T20:43:00.000-08:00

nowadays, there are alot of things happening around. wonder who will really understand what i will be going through past days, now and later.
tests is coming every now and then. chem test again for next week thurs. oh my, how i wish i have enough time for all, unfortunately, i dont. -.-
starting next wek, i will be coming home like 5- 6pm?! not math remedials then is cca. fNn coursework will be held on tues. imaging you can only do homeworks at night and you are so dread to continue anymore. OLEVEL results was out today. congrats to mrs palani who told me that her sec5 fNn cohort 20% passes, many got distinction if i not wrong. she so happy alrights. i like the way she encouraged me just. that was just so pleasant la. =) whole day was worried about my bro result as well. oh mann, i was like somehow occupied by that.
still considering whether i should take chinese Olevel this year although my mum didnt stop me from doing that. after this day, i really have the urge and urgency of studying seriously real hard now.
have to do my tuition homeworks and study now.

i cant take my eyes off you. be my valentine, will you?

2006-02-08T18:57:00.000-08:00

I HATE PERVERTS!
i reached home about one hour plus ago. just a fucking hell teacher ruined the rest of my day.
i was kana called out to meet mrs das and ms ong after assembly. it was rather surprising. only explain why i didnt go for math remedial last few days.

thurs- absent

fri- cca

mon- still have not recovered and dread going

tues- i dont have to go.

anyway, i was called out for nothing as i no need to go yesterday. im going only on packageone day! for goodness sake.

after school, went to remedial class. i was still so dread going in. wanted to find a excuse to go off early. many of them left early as well. persis and me decided to leave at 3.40pm together. maylene already gone missing one hour ago, iryani too. no one likes that math teacher today. kana pissed off. -.-

ss test tomorrow. have to study now. oh my, homeworks as well.

2006-02-06T20:45:00.000-08:00

my new updates - http://cocos-milkshake.blogspot.com .
relink me. alrights people? thanks =)

one matter happened today that made me so confused and stunned. it was just a rumour flying around and it actually involved us. just now once maylene called, i felt so happy and glad! i just simply loves maylene!!!!
today just got our N LEVEL fNn coursework. it is due on july but we still have to hand up bit by bit. exactly like last year but last year was full of craps and i dont wanna repeat that as this is like much much more important, right?!
if can, i wanna ask those sec5s for some advices. =)
N LEVEL time is running out! i can only think of this now. hellos, it is like three more months to MYE, then two more months to prelim and month later, it is N LEVEL! i really have the feeling of running short of time. time for stress stress and more stress!!!
have to do my geography research on Bungalore now. -.-

chocolate milkshake with banana!